A confession

Hey there buddy, how are you today? I hope you’re doing well. I don't know if you're gonna read this or not. I just want to say that I miss you. Remember when we talked for hours on the phone? Remember when we hugged each other everytime we said goodbye? Remember when we used to talk everyday? Remember when we watched United’s game together? Remember when you used to sang for me everytime I feel sad? Remember when we used to said that we love each other? I know you do remember all of that. Oh God, I hate to admit it but I miss all of that. I miss the way you made me laugh, I miss your smile, I miss you, I miss everything about you. I miss how I could talk to you every day and always had that to look forward to. When I talked to you it’s like nothing else mattered, because talking to you was so effortless. I miss how special you made me feel.  I miss thinking about what it would be like to live with you. I really miss being able to believe that things would work out. I know I shouldn’t say that but yes it’s true, I miss you. I love how we used to be before everything changed. 9 days ago I made a tough decision. It was hard for you, and it was hard for me, it was hard for both of us. And then I decided to be with him, instead of you. But until this day, I still don’t have any idea if it’s a right or wrong decision. Because everytime when I’m with him, I still think about you. It’s crazy, isn’t it? I mean, I shouldn’t think about you. But that’s when I realized that I still love you, that my love for you will never change. And I want to say thank you. Thank you for your kindness, thank you for everything that you did for me, thank you for always be there for me, thank you for always comforted me in my times of darkness and despair. You’re the best and will always be the best. I don’t know what’s gonna happen between us, but if we really meant to be together then it will. Maybe not now, but it will, someday. Goodnight, I love you. I will always love you.